Sometimes the most helpful thing members of this forum can do is recommend a good article, website or book. Far better to recommend a comprehensive article than try to paraphrase or compress it down to a few sentences than can be typed here.Makes sense. Seems the case. Ill try to remember you are one of the good ones on here.
Also, anyone can learn, but understanding is more difficult - unless the new knowledge links to your existing knowledge, you don't understand. It just takes patience to find an explanation that achieves that. It doesn't mean that other explanations are bad, they just don't make that link with your existing knowledge.
