Ecclesiastes 9:10.... "Whatsoever thy hand findeth to do, do it with thy might; for there is no work, nor device, nor knowledge, nor wisdom, in the grave, whither thou goest." Knowing what I've wanted to do since about the age of 8 hasn't hurt at all. I knew I wanted to play with radios, and that's what I've done for nearly 55 years.....most of them actually being paid to do it. I glommed onto RF with a vengeance, and I've never regretted a day.cmd64;
Get a job as a bartender; good pay, lots of chicks, high demand, and good hours. I was an engineering manager for years, and I see no reason to hire you. You seem like a jack of all trades and master of none. If you want a meaningful job in electronics pick a field, master the theory, and get a job in the field. Simple if your life is on the straight.
If anyone needs to know what it's really like to have a CALLING on one's life, this is must viewing: