Serena my roommate is off trying to get my manual wheelchair fixed. The wheels were pretty chewed up from the breaks already.God am I lucky in my choice of friends. I have a pretty nasty scab on my left arm. from where I fell on the floor transferring from bed to the wheelchair and back again by myself. This being how I get my daily excise. Two of my medications have caused constipation again. I am in pretty intense pain from that. I'm working on the issue.

 

Looks like it is going to be a few days to get my manual wheelchair fixed,Guess I'll be using my powered chair for around the house (insert sad face here). Actually I prefer the powered chair, my roommate insist because she think I need the exercise.I am slow using the manual chair, very slow.

I have gotten OCD working on my funtion generator project, I'm spending a lot of time one the drawing.

When I finish I will post it here.

I have to admit I am an attention hound. I love posting and answering Queries.If I weren't brain damaged I would be a much better moderator.

 

OK, so I was at PT literally just hanging around.

 

BTW, That expression on my face was pure terror.

 

Been a while since I've posted here. Be careful about the questions you ask unless you really want the answers. I asked both the Physical Therapy (PT) and Occupational therapy (OT) techs about the odds of me making even a partial recovery, The news was not good. I had already come to this conclusion so I was not surprised, This has been the cause of my rather deep funk of late, I will continue the rather intense exercise because small hope is better than no hope. You try standing at a sink with one good leg then lowering your butt to an inch of the seat and then standing again. This is one squat. I am up to 40. 4 sets of 10, my original goal, I am going to bump it up to to 50 today. My legs are sore, even my paralyzed one which will imitate my working legs. I'm using this tendency on purpose.

So I will continue to post projects as if I have a hope of someday doing them. July and September I start seeing a neurologist and a psychiatrist. Both of which I need badly. The ongoing brain fog problem and short term memory loss is affecting my ability to learn, badly, another negative. I have got to learn to adjust though.

And now, another picture:



I love how thin my waist has become. I am down to 146 pounds.and still losing weight. I am struggling not to lose any more but I really don't have much of an appetite lately. There was a time when I got depressed I would binge eat which explains how I got to almost 300 pounds for most of my life

 

Been a while since I've posted here. I will continue the rather intense exercise because small hope is better than no hope. You try standing at a sink with one good leg then lowering your butt to an inch of the seat and then standing again. This is one squat. I am up to 40. 4 sets of 10, my original goal, I am going to bump it up to to 50 today. My legs are sore, even my paralyzed one which will imitate my working legs. I'm using this tendency on purpose.

Many years back, I had knee surgery. After the surgery, my ankle on that leg had lost feeling. This prevented me from having a natural walking gait. I had to think of moving the ankle to get smooth strides. That is no longer the case. Either the nerves have reconnected or the brain has developed an alternative path to control the ankle.

In other words... Keep doing what you are doing and your body will do what it can to help. It may take a while but things will get better without you even noticing it.

 

In other words... Keep doing what you are doing and your body will do what it can to help. It may take a while but things will get better without you even noticing it.

I believe that covers what I was going to mention. Look back to the beginnings and just how far you have come to get to today. Look at how much hard work you have poured into this. Now, just look ahead.

Ron

 

It is quite apparent why you are pleased with the weight loss, but I hope you can keep from loosing more. A little pizza now an then not only helps keep the weight from coming off but (because of the carbohydrates) stimulate mental activity.

 

Yeah I can now eat candy and chocolate (Mmmmm) guilt free, just gotta watch the teeth! And yes, I do love Pizza, Need more veggies though.

 

Did the catheter insert change today, I am down to 145, The weight loss seems to be leveling off. So I go back to exercising again to help fight depression. Not a bad plan I suspect.Went through a self destructive phase, but I realized what I was doing and will stop it. My mind is funny in the contortions it will put itself through. Going through a lot of pain that seems to be coming from within my head but actually hurts. I've never thought of myself as a drama queen, but it seems to be lurking inside of me. Who knew?(not a stinking word, people).

 

Your recovery is anything but straight-forward, but I am glad that you are able to make mid-course corrections and stay on the path. I am sorry to hear about your self-desctructive phase, it must get pretty frustrating at times.

 

I have to agree with Dick. The course you have taken has gotten you where you are today which is a long way from the start. What you are doing, while difficult at times, is obviously working. What is it we say? When something works don't screw with it. Just keep on trucking along the course.

Ron

 

Hola Wendy,

From all what I've heard even from doctors and my own experience, progressive failure of short term memory is a reality that anyone could expect in life.
I use whatever trick I can to minimize the effects. Careful short notes help a lot. Reading those notes in loud voice do help as well.

 

I haven't posted in a while because I am ashamed of myself. When my internet went out mid July I thought it was going to be a month or so to get it fixed. My roommate would not hear of using my phone to tether the net to my computer to my phone (in her world the phone is better) I snapped I tried to hurt myself with a fork in what amounts to a temper tantrum. It shocked me to something closer to sanity. I didn't succeed because I was not serous, like I said it was a temper tantrum, pure and simple.

So instead I called Frontier Communications and promised them as a bored paralyzed woman with nothing else to do in life but call them each and every day early in the morning to check on the progress, which I did. It was fixed within a week. Turned out some hardware on their end had died. Funny how that works. They now know my name and life story. They never did send the email survey they kept promising me? I wonder why? I was so looking forward to it too.

Since then I have used my newfound skill with my insurance provider. Used the same line and technique, it worked there too.If bureaucracies realize they can't wear you down they will move, albeit very slowly.Being very lonely I liked to talk, I did everything but asked them, Will you be my friend? Their call log showed I had been their the day before and I promised them in all sincerity I would be back tomorrow. I also kept a call log and would refer back to the people I talked to and when. Most effective. Was I a bad nag?

Since then I have gotten much more serious about exercise, my abs are responding nicely. I stand by myself at the sink then slowly lower myself back into the chair it gives my arm and core a great workout both legs are sore whilst I go to sleep. Sleep better and deeper too. Still fighting the killer depression, The nightmares as I am going to sleep are not helping. I am looking forward to the psychologist visit, Will he/she be my friend?

I haven't given up on the phone issue, it is just on the back burner, After all I am still bored with nothing else to do.

 

It sounds as though you are taking some of the most difficult parts of your current situation and turning them to your advantage in dealing with those companies. Kind of like "If life hands you lemons..."

Watch those tantrums, especially when you have sharp tools in your hand!

Just wondering: Does your exercise help with your depression?

 

It helps with sleep, which is much the same thing lately I am always writing projects up with drawings I have been contemplating publishing them similar to how Forrest Mimms III did with Radio Shack Finding a venue might be impossible, but it would be something to do.

 

Still losing weight I am now down to 141 pounds, Lowest I have ever been this side of 18 years old, exercising like crazy, nothing real positive to report, but I'm working on it, that and eating.

 

Still losing weight I am now down to 141 pounds, Lowest I have ever been this side of 18 years old, exercising like crazy, nothing real positive to report, but I'm working on it, that and eating.

 

I feel I am getting close to my ending.

While I firmly believe death is not an end but a new beginning, I find my quality of life such that I look forward to it ending. No one truly knows what waits for us when we pass. I sure don't I have put some thought into cheating and exiting early, but so far I am resisting this impulse because their are more chapters left in my story, The only certainty is that it will end (life) their is no reason to rush things as of yet. So I hang around to see what will happen.

 

Wendy, You have made a new friend: ME. And while we may never meet in person, I want to thank you so very much for offering to draw a circuit based on my description. You are welcome to do that any time that you feel like it, since it would be a very big deal for me to do, if I could.

 

Pain

I have an ongoing bladder infection I have been waking at 2AM then watching the sun rise.

I finally had enough an insisted I see someone who could prescribe drugs. After 2 month of this I am finally on antibiotics. Still some pain but now I wait.