Right now is probably the roughest time I have ever had in my life I am still very paralyzed on my left side. With lots of help I can transfer to a wheelchair.Mentally I have recovered, I think I am much more aware and acute than I used to be. I exercise about 4 hours a day hoping Some spark in my mind will wake up and connect my arm/hand or finish connecting to my leg.I spend most of my time in bed with a cranky old laptop that has seen better days.My caretaker is a TV addict that doesn't understand why that is not enough for me, I have had arguments about keeping this computer. Depression tells me I may be like this for the rest of my life, and I have had to come to terms with that fact.I still have hope, but it is a struggle to keep alive. It is fragile.I am treated like baby since I can not transport myself to a bathroom.Very little dignity remains.
Plus side is I can write.Which helps fight the isolation and loneliness I am feeling. If you have a faith I could use some prayers. I have people who care enough to take care of my basic needs,so there is that.
/rant
Plus side is I can write.Which helps fight the isolation and loneliness I am feeling. If you have a faith I could use some prayers. I have people who care enough to take care of my basic needs,so there is that.
/rant