When I have lots happening in my mind, such as unanswered questions, I find it helps me to find a quite place, sit down, and write things down in a notebook.It is important to have someone to talk to, whether it is a boy or a girl. To get something off your chest, is most important.
If you cannot find anyone to talk to, and you don't want to talk to your parents, I suggest that you start writing a diary or a journal or a log. Just write. When you write, you might get to see your situation in another perspective, and maybe the answer is laying in front of you.
Be strong, and keep smiling.
This allows me to articulate to myself what is troubling me. Eventually, when I keep at it, the answers will appear.
I can fill up a 100-page notebook in 6 months. My collection of notes continue to grow. One day they will appear in a book.